Our pastor used that phrase to describe Paul’s last days. He felt like everyone had deserted him. All of his missionary friends *poof*. They all tapped out on him except for Luke. And they sat around in a jail cell and talked about all Paul had done. And Luke wrote it all down. Paul was in despair. He couldn’t see what God was doing at the time (writing actual scripture through Luke) but He knew what God’s track record was in his life. He was a rescuer and He never left his side. Not even for a minute. Rewind to a year ago. I was in the backside of that desert. Pretty sure that God messed up because , “ how am I going through a divorce after almost 29 years of marriage? Where did *I* mess up? How was this even happening? And let me tell you. That desert was dry folks. Cause I was being stubborn. And mad. All at God. Well and maybe someone else. But being mad at God and that person just magnified the sin in my life. How I let God down so many times. How *I * failed in my marriage. And
my life. I realize now the truth in every good and perfect thing comes from above. If you would have asked me five years ago what I thought of divorce and if I’d ever go through it, my answer would have been I know God hates it and NO. I’d never go through a divorce. Funny what happens when you tell God YOUR plans. But here I am. And you know what? I’m good. I’m more than good. I’m so gosh darn happy! I didn’t know I wasn’t happy and while I would have chosen to put the work into my marriage and try to make it better it didn’t happen. So again, here I am striving every day to be in the will of God and make Him proud of me. I couldn’t have done any of this in the past year and a half without Him. Yesterday I went to the opening meeting for Online Catawba. It was amazing!! I felt like I walked into a little family. They were all so welcoming. My 3-5 pod is great! This is just another way this year that God has blessed me! I also get to stay at Lyle Creek and teach beside one of my be