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The Backside of the Desert

 Our pastor used that phrase to describe Paul’s last days. He felt like everyone had deserted him. All of his missionary friends *poof*. They all tapped out on him except for Luke. And they sat around in a jail cell and talked about all Paul had done. And Luke wrote it all down. Paul was in despair. He couldn’t see what God was doing at the time (writing actual scripture through Luke) but He knew what God’s track record was in his life. He was a rescuer and He never left his side. Not even for a minute. 

Rewind to a year ago. I was in the backside of that desert. Pretty sure that God messed up because , “ how am I going through a divorce after almost 29 years of marriage? Where did *I* mess up? How was this even happening? And let me tell you. That desert was dry folks. Cause I was being stubborn. And mad. All at God. Well and maybe someone else. But being mad at God and that person just magnified the sin in my life. How I let God down so many times. How *I * failed in my marriage. And when I really took the time to turn the tables around and look at my own life, it was ugly. Once again I had failed God. I was doing it all wrong. So I decided to do better. I confessed my sins. Told my soon to be at the time ex husband that I knew there were things I did wrong in our marriage and I made it all right. I didn’t say made it all easy because with the divorce and all the upheaval that took place in my life it was anything but easy. At times I felt like someone was ripping my heart out and then wringing it out like a dishrag. But God…He was with me every darn step of the way. Just like Paul He rescued me. I will never ever be the same again. Not because of the divorce but because of the very real way God showed me His love and grace and mercy. I never want to forget what He did for me in the backside of that desert.

Where are you today? Are you in the desert? Let me pray for you. I’ll talk to you too. Just message me. The time is near.. Pretty soon we are going to be called to heaven. Are you ready? 

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